T?? D?L? M???????
“What the heck was that?!” I gasped as I tried to compose myself. I looked around, trying to remember what was happening and where I was. She had just appeared. Why is that? I must have been hallucinating, I thought. There’s no way she can still be alive. I even saw her—
The thought ended there as I began to sob. After three years, I thought I could still see her. That memory is still fresh in my mind; what the air smelled like, what was around me, what took her from me — it still feels like I was at her funeral yesterday…
A creak from behind me jerked me back into the present. I let my hands slip into my pockets, trying to find anything that can let me see where I was. I finally found a flashlight. Relieved, I turned it on, expecting to find my house, all in order, with Mom and Dad sitting at the table, doing the taxes. I got the complete opposite.
The thought ended there as I began to sob. After three years, I thought I could still see her. That memory is still fresh in my mind; what the air smelled like, what was around me, what took her from me — it still feels like I was at her funeral yesterday…
A creak from behind me jerked me back into the present. I let my hands slip into my pockets, trying to find anything that can let me see where I was. I finally found a flashlight. Relieved, I turned it on, expecting to find my house, all in order, with Mom and Dad sitting at the table, doing the taxes. I got the complete opposite.
T?? D??? M???????
“I saw them again,” I said nervously.
“Really?” she replied. “I thought that it was just some weird dream thing”
“But it wasn’t a dream this time.” I explained. “I was actually there this time, rather than looking through someone else’s eyes. I was actually feeling everything there, making my own decisions. I even saw you, ju—”
“Don’t bring me into this,” she interrupted. “I already feel uncomfortable enough about this topic.”
“Okay,” I replied. I wish she could have known about what I saw, who she was with, and what she did. Instead, I had to live with whatever I experienced without her support.
“Really?” she replied. “I thought that it was just some weird dream thing”
“But it wasn’t a dream this time.” I explained. “I was actually there this time, rather than looking through someone else’s eyes. I was actually feeling everything there, making my own decisions. I even saw you, ju—”
“Don’t bring me into this,” she interrupted. “I already feel uncomfortable enough about this topic.”
“Okay,” I replied. I wish she could have known about what I saw, who she was with, and what she did. Instead, I had to live with whatever I experienced without her support.
T?? D??? ????????
The Shadows scare me, mother
They reach out for me.
They always try to hurt me
Like I always do to the wolf.
I don't like the way their eyes glow.
They always stare into who I am,
But I have already reached my best.
I have liberated myself.
The stars will be on my side,
And "She" will love me for it.
Is this the third way?
Or the second?
How can I tell you when
If I cannot move forward?
How can I get Buddy back
If he's not in my room?
How can I live here
If "she" is dead?
How can I love here
If "she" is dead?
How can be alive
If "she" has"him?
How do I exist?
How did I come to be?
They reach out for me.
They always try to hurt me
Like I always do to the wolf.
I don't like the way their eyes glow.
They always stare into who I am,
But I have already reached my best.
I have liberated myself.
The stars will be on my side,
And "She" will love me for it.
Is this the third way?
Or the second?
How can I tell you when
If I cannot move forward?
How can I get Buddy back
If he's not in my room?
How can I live here
If "she" is dead?
How can I love here
If "she" is dead?
How can be alive
If "she" has"him?
How do I exist?
How did I come to be?
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